Get Healthy Plan
Oct. 19th, 2012
I have done many diets and crap to try and get healthy, none
of which worked. Now, I know why. I wasn’t ready, mentally. It is now recent that my lifestyle habits
(none good) are catching up with me…in a VERY dire manner. It is to the point now that I am in so much
fear for my life that I need to take control of the situation ASAP.
Here is how I treat myself, and the factors effecting my wellbeing:
I am 150 pounds overweight.
I smoke a pack of Newports a day.
I am inactive at home.
I sleep 3-4 hours a night.
I drink a lot of coffee.
I don’t drink water for days at a time.
I have a HUGE load of stress.
I don’t eat right…my diet is whatever crap I throw together
just to not be hungry. I can’t remember
the last time I ate a vegetable or a piece of fruit.
I skip breakfast and eat mostly at night.
I seriously have the weirdest diet ever. I am overweight, yet, do not eat sweets
often, don’t snack, don’t drink many soft drinks, and don’t eat much red
meat. I eat mostly processed foods, or
foods with much starch. This leaves me
satiated, but lacking nutrients and I feel sluggish after eating….well,
sluggish all day. I don’t have a food
addiction, cannot think of food when sad or stressed, and when I do eat, I get
full quickly, so my portions are not big.
I guess with so many other factors to my ill health, nothing works
right. I am EXTREMELY out of balance.
Well, what drove me to write this, and decide to try AGAIN
to change my life? Increasing anxiety
about my ailments causing me to think I am about to die at any given moment. I feel so sick and achy non-stop and I’ve had
it. I want a normal life. This is NO way to live. I am finally at a point where I have had
enough and am now mentally ready to change things.
Apart from the health risks...my self image is at play. The person I see in the mirror is NOT the person who I really am. I am a girly girl. I am into beauty and all things style. To see myself wearing clothes that are not me, but only for fit, kills me inside. I feel like a prisoner. I am not able to express myself the way I want, nor are people able to see who I really am either. I get treated like dirt for being overweight. I mean, If I lose all of this weight, my mind will still be there. I will still be me. But imagine, in your mind, you are this sultry, gorgeous, stylish fox....but nobody sees that. They see a tired, overweight old looking person who dresses like someone twice her age. It sucks. Like seriously, it really fucking SUCKS.
Apart from the health risks...my self image is at play. The person I see in the mirror is NOT the person who I really am. I am a girly girl. I am into beauty and all things style. To see myself wearing clothes that are not me, but only for fit, kills me inside. I feel like a prisoner. I am not able to express myself the way I want, nor are people able to see who I really am either. I get treated like dirt for being overweight. I mean, If I lose all of this weight, my mind will still be there. I will still be me. But imagine, in your mind, you are this sultry, gorgeous, stylish fox....but nobody sees that. They see a tired, overweight old looking person who dresses like someone twice her age. It sucks. Like seriously, it really fucking SUCKS.
So, following this page will be a daily log of my habits….eating,
smoking, activity, water intake, even smoking and stresses. I want to visibly monitor things….and monitor
my progress.
Day 1. 10/19/2013
This is the last day of my old self. So the following will look pretty bad I think…
B- 24oz. WaWa
coffee; sausage egg & cheese WaWa croissant sammich
L- Stuffed shells
and garlic bread; orange soda
D- 2 Hot
dogs; handful of small pierogies; side of spaghetti. 8oz. coffee.
H20- I drank one glass after evening coffee as I began
having heart palpitations and wanted to push the caffeine out of my system
quickly.
Smoking- one pack. (My nerves have been on edge lately and have
found myself chain smoking this week.
Boy do I feel it too.)
Activity- none but a short walk to the pizza place for
lunch.
Hours of sleep- bed @3am.
Woke @7am
Feeling very tired today.
Also, I have had some heart palpitations, dizziness and stomach
cramps. I had one small panic attack. Lots of worry about my health and was pretty
anxious all day long. I am feeling kind
of depressed.
Weight: 272
Tomorrow’s goal: cut down on the cigarettes, drink 8 glasses
of water, incorporate some veggies into my day. I will go light food shopping
for some salad stuff, and other nutritious food.
My thoughts:
Wow. Reading this and
seeing my daily lifestyle in front of my eyes is quite a shocker. I am really bad to myself. Wow. Just, wow…
So...where am I going with this. What are my goals?
To lose that 150 pounds, safely and naturally.
To quit smoking.
Become more active.
Establish a healthy eating routine.
Sleep at least 8 hours a night.
The weight and the smoking are the 2 on the top of my list. These are the dangerous things that have me feeling like crap all the time.
I am currently in beauty school, and am on my feet a lot. When i return home, I am exhausted and sport a grody set of swollen ankles.
I suffer from nonstop pains and aches all over every inch of my body.
By the end of this month I want to be at least 5 pounds thinner. I have a little under two weeks. Let's see how it works!
My current weight is 272.
Shopping List for tomorrow:
Spinach greens
Tuna
water bottle to keep handy at all times
lemons
oranges
pineapple
apples
raisins
yogurt
boneless chicken
It will be hard to change my eating habits from a high starch diet to a clean diet. But I feel that I can easily make myself used to these foods after a good week or two.
Maybe once I start to feel better, I will never be able to even imagine eating like shit again.
I hope this works. I'm at a time in my life where if I don't make these changes, there will be no turning back. My health will suffer greatly.